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2 thing has happen today… both of them will change the course of my life… I’m like it or not… it gonna happen…

The first thing is wedding… Well it not my wedding, it was Lisa wedding… As an EX and a friend, i should be happy for her… I know… this gonna happen soon or later and i always think that i will be ready for this…

But…

When she call me, to inform me about this… My feeling cant help from being so mix and heavy…

Lisa, I know this is ur life and it’s ur right to chose ur happiness… But when u suddenly say, u gonna marry him because he ask for ur hand… I can’t help from feeling uneasy… I know, i should be happy for u. I am happy as long as u are happy… But think carefully… Wedding is not a simple matter… What happen to ur word saying that love are important in marriage, until u say marriage cant work without being in love first…

Anway, congratulation… I hope u will be happy with ur future husband, untill the end of ur life… You always have the key to my heart…

Also today, i’m doing something that i’m not usually do… Confess my feeling to other people. Well finally i have got the strength to confess to her… The result… i don’t know… i dunno if i’m being so hasty about this confession stuff, but 1 thing i know… i wont regret this anymore…

Amm, When the first time i c u, my heart feel different… I know i’m not the kind of person that are easy to fall in love but i feel something different when i’m near u… When i first meet u, u are someone fiance. So i had to shut my feeling because i don’t want to steal other people fiance… But when i heard u break up with him, my feeling are mix… some are sad for u and some were happy… But before i can make any move, i feel like being struck by thunder when u say u got new bf… but then again, if that was ur happiness… i’m ready to share ur happiness with u, even if u are with another guy…

Amm, no matter what ur answer tomorrow… i gonna still loving u and hoping for a chance to be together… I Love U… I really do…